Make up, saving face

After discussions with my sisters, who each have distinct world views, about makeup I found their reasons to be for social  purposes (feeling like they need to wear it) and for aesthetics, (feeling fresh, skin care and protection), that make up is a cover, make up is socialized and a girl will use it to fit in, and recently having a beard I note the following observation:
      Makeup can "make up" for other modesty losses in a modesty contest with other women. cultures less blinded by materialism and industry realize a man can also be a commodity, covered in his case with a beard or mustache. Make up is part of sexualization and not just puberty; ie the burka/hijab. Many make ups contain metals and should not be used as a topical serum.
      A man's beard can function as make up. In some cultures it is given religious significance. In the native American tradition a man can't grow a beard, so the hair of his head became full of meaning, me would pluck every hair out with tweezers. Sampson's hair was given meaning, and even today a man is socialized to have hair that is short, but to make up for it with wearing nice collared and accessorized shirts (ties), brands and etc. hats and sunglasses are also in the mix. As a result, a man with nicer things is given benevolence
      We wear make up for social purposes (men do, especially if on the news) and it shows a commoditization that comes from sexual awareness.  I'm not representing anyone, so if you have ideas about who I could share this with let me know, thank you! comments and etc. are also appreciated. Thank you for joining me on this thought romp.
 

Missionary PTSD?

Do I (did I) have ptsd? Obviously it’s not just soldiers who can get post traumatic stress disorder, anyone having trauma, (trauma in German means “dream”) can gave the disorder. In the LDS community we serve missions, some do and some don’t. Some volunteer, others are expected. In the mission community are heard similar things that I imagine I would hear in the military, missionaries earn “attractive wife points” for enduring physical or mental struggle. Missionaries live out of a suitcase, they could be assigned for six weeks in the mission to do anything, anywhere, (I guess they wouldn’t be assigned to just clean.) We did it for our family, our future spouse, and as a volunteer living in Florida, for my country. I’ll describe the emotions of a dream around two years I had after being back.  This time it was real, all the other dreams, even the recurring one that now seemed comfortable, were just that, dreams. I’d had to take a break, a new protocol, but whatever had been keeping me, after a year I was back. Even in a restaurant the sense of duty rested on me, I was a missionary, but there were problems, a car broke down, the other missionaries were non-operating. I sat writing a letter- just one more year, then I’d be done with it.

I awoke and found that all of my emotions were just another set of repressions. It was more than 6 months later- I hadn’t been first asked about my mission, or thought of as a return missionary for months. I’m not the only one who had this type of dreams. A married man who I worked early morning custodial with relayed having had dreams that he was back.

I have dreams I’m in high school, in the marching band, but there more comfortable; though I was viewed weak by some there was that year where I took the time off, enjoyed football games in the stands with my friends, played basketball with them even after school. Then the season ended as well. I recently had a mission dream with a visit from a family member. It was a good dream.